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Wed May 24, 2006, 6:12 PM
ok. so i think i've seriously either lost what i had or i am finally realizing that i had nothing to begin with. i don't know what the hell i'm doing with all of this stuff, i mean really, i'm not that good, and if i, myself, can say that it has to mean something you know? i thought maybe as i progressed i would improve or find like my true niche, but i'm not finding anything, and i'm begining to question what i'm doing, or if i have any sort of real skill or if i've just been bullshitting my way through everything and i have no real skill or effort, or want to do any of this. i mean this is what makes me feel bad, you know that you're not good when you look back at the year's worht of work you did and can't find anything that you're truely proud of, somehting that you thing i spersonally interesting or inspiring. what's the point then? what's wrong? is it a slump or do you realize that you're just not cut out for it? to a cetain extent i enjoy doing it, but then i step back and look at what i produce and i feel like shit. that isn't supose to be the feeling is it? or if i have a piece or two that i feel pround of, then no one else can even bare to look at them. i try to expand my abilities and my experiences as much as i can, but i con only do so much, i can only take so much regection. this just sucks and i dont really know if i want to keep going.


so...if anyone has any brilliant ideas on something they saw that may be interesting to try or think that i should try doing something else, feedback would be much appreciated.

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  • Current Residence: minnesota
  • Interests: painting, thinking, taking pictures, my friends
  • Favourite band or musician: way too many to list
  • Favourite artist: i like alot of pop art lately
  • MP3 player of choice: creative zen micro

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:iconbrokenskygazr:
Hey there! Thanks for adding me to your friends list :hug:

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:iconiceblueorbitz:
hey if sum1 comments u here, you should comment them back on their page ok? its kinda like myspace, u dont comment back to sum1 on ur own page ;)

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:iconiceblueorbitz:
shall i buy u a new camera?? lol. if u really wanna get into photography at all i would invest in a $50 or so film camera... i could get a real nice one for about that cheap with good lenses too if u wanna. cuz ur camera kinda sucks no offence.... but then again it could be user error?? lol jk digital point and shoots suck.

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:iconxintransigentx:
yeah i know my camera blows. it's a real piece. i might just have to take you up on that cheap camera. it would be really cool, cause my mom's film camera is an automatic one so you can't really adjust the shutter speeds or any of that stuff. but yeah. that would be super cool. lol

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:iconiceblueorbitz:
hey get sum more stuff on here :)

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:iconxintransigentx:
yeah yeah yeah i'm on it. lol

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thanks for :+fav: ;)
and welcome to DA :wave:

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thanks for the fav on Another view! :D

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