ok. so i think i've seriously either lost what i had or i am finally realizing that i had nothing to begin with. i don't know what the hell i'm doing with all of this stuff, i mean really, i'm not that good, and if i, myself, can say that it has to mean something you know? i thought maybe as i progressed i would improve or find like my true niche, but i'm not finding anything, and i'm begining to question what i'm doing, or if i have any sort of real skill or if i've just been bullshitting my way through everything and i have no real skill or effort, or want to do any of this. i mean this is what makes me feel bad, you know that you're not good when you look back at the year's worht of work you did and can't find anything that you're truely proud of, somehting that you thing i spersonally interesting or inspiring. what's the point then? what's wrong? is it a slump or do you realize that you're just not cut out for it? to a cetain extent i enjoy doing it, but then i step back and look at what i produce and i feel like shit. that isn't supose to be the feeling is it? or if i have a piece or two that i feel pround of, then no one else can even bare to look at them. i try to expand my abilities and my experiences as much as i can, but i con only do so much, i can only take so much regection. this just sucks and i dont really know if i want to keep going.


so...if anyone has any brilliant ideas on something they saw that may be interesting to try or think that i should try doing something else, feedback would be much appreciated.